Taking somethings for granted.

After watching this particular show about kids having to go through surgeries because of illnesses, made me think.. I should take better care of my health. It's easier said than done.  But I've started eating apples with skin as snacks. Doing small workouts going to shops more often? (does that count?)  Hope I will do workouts like jogging and going to gym. Then somehow I suddenly started thinking about my late grandmother. It feels like a dream that she passed away. She was always there for me even though I'm not her favorite granddaughter. When I'm having a stomachache, when I fight with my parents or sister. The first person I went to was her.  I still remember when she was admitted to the hospital. I did nothing more than asking how is she and massage her head at times.  She was in hospital for 2-3 weeks.  The last memory I had of her was waving goodbye to her and thought I will see her again the next day.  When she passed away, the nurse said she was smiling..  I don't know if she know that I love her cause i'm not the type to say ILY but through actions kind of a person. So.. I hope she know that even though I was grumpy and mad at her for telling me to do this and that.. I still love her. (things like going to shops or buy for her food outside). Do I feel regret? Yes I do.