used and thrown away.

I had to cancelled my meeting with Mala at the last min.
Thank god my aunt called me to ask about my mum.
Family problems all over again. This time, it got worst.
Sheeeshh.
Stayed at home, made sure didn't make mum angry.
Freak, instead she vented the anger on me.
I started to think what happens if I did went out and meet Mala?
The answer I got was, she would be venting the anger on my sis.
Good that I stayed, but the bad thing is, I nearly burst out. But I didn't.

I seriously think, I cannot make any plans.
Cause for sure, something will just crop up, and there goes my plans.
I did told my parents abt this thing, having to always cancel out our plan somehow.
Sheeshh.. So sorry for those whom I cancelled our plans alot of times.

Used and thrown away.
The perfect phrase for us now.
We helped people, and get thrown away after helping and ignored by them.
But once they needed help, they will come crawling back.
Nice. Limits. Limits.

I think I need to work and earn money.